Friday, March 24, 2006

Another month to wait

We got official word from Great Wall yesterdeay that the cut off date in China was May 30! They only filled 5 days worth of referrals! At this pace, we will be lucky to get a referral in July! I surely hope we don't have to wait that long. I don't know how I am going to get through this next month. If the CCAA continues to only fill days worth of referrals, then we should plan on a June referral and hopefully travel in July. I do like how referrals have been coming at the end/beginning of the months. The next batch will most likely come the last few days of April. Amazingly, I am OK with the news. I'm a little shocked, but I am OK with it. I think there is still so much I want to do before we go. I definitely need to lose some weight. The room isn't finished and I don't have everything I need. That brings me to another topic and that is the shower. Do I go ahead and have the shower or wait until we get a referral? So many unknowns. I'm just shocked that I am not going crazy. Oh well. What can we do? Todd isn't handling the news very well. He feels like something is drastically wrong. I think I may have created that monster because someone on the June board was speculating that that might be the reason for the slow down in referrals. I mentioned this to Todd and has this idea stuck in his head. So, we're off to wait another month. The CCAA will need to fill 10 days worth of referrals for us to be in the next batch. They have May 31 through June 9. I don't even want to speculate!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

The rumor mill is ON FIRE!!!!!

Oh boy! The rumor mills are alive and well today. I'm thankful to be a part of Great Wall who are always conservative and never give us speculation. People in the June group are going crazy. The latest rumor states that the only people who will receive referrals are the rest of May. The rumors are coming from two other agencies: Holt and another agency that I can't think of. Great Wall sent us an e-mail around 2:00 stating that they were aware of the rumors but that they had not heard anything from the CCAA indicating that only May LID people were getting referrals. I believe Great Wall said to take the rumors with a grain of salt. Until I hear from Great Wall, I will not listen to rumors. Until next time!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

We received our "Places Everyone" e-mail today! We are definitely in the Matching Room and the second group on deck to get referrals through our agency. This doesn't really mean anything, however. We still don't know when we will get our referralor if we will be in the next group. The nice thing is that we should know something in the next two weeks. If we are not in the next group, we HAVE to be in the group following. I can't imagine waiting another month, but I have absolutely no control over the situation. I am at an amazingly calm place right now. I don't know if I'm trying to protect my heart or what. I'm going to go with it! It's nice not to be super-stressed for a change!

I've come to peace with the fact that I probably won't get to go to my brother's wedding. He is getting married June 17. I have a sneaking suspicion that I will be in China then. Hopefully it doesn't work out that way, but if it does, so be it. Like I said, I've come to peace with the situation.

Nothing much else to report. Still waiting.


Tuesday, March 07, 2006

It is March 7, 2006. We had hoped that by this time, we would already have our child. Unfortunately, or should I say because God has a plan, we are still waiting. We have had several blows in the last couple of weeks. We thought that the CCAA would at least send referrals for the rest of May. They only sent referrals for May 17. Then, we were certain they would send the rest of May, but they only sent through May 25. So now we are stuck on the cusp of the next group. I want to believe we will be in it, but I am protecting my heart from the disappointment. After the last bit of news I was ready to throw in the towel and forget about ever becoming a parent. Thank goodness Todd is a patient man. He has to deal with my "over-reactions" quite a bit! I tell you he is a saint. Anyway, I know that this adoption is going to work out. I know that we are SO close. I know all of this, but I am ready to be a mom!

We should be receiving what Great Wall refers to as a "Places Everyone" e-mail. This will show us where we really stand. I sure hope we don't receive diappointing news again!

Until next time!